the tomato.

3/25/2007

How do you when you are too haolian?

Hao Lian sort of means to show off, but i will show later it isn't really that. But hao-lianing doesn't mean you're lousy at it. You could be the most pro in the world and still have a hao-lian attitude.

I personally find it hard to not hao-lian, even though chinese people always say that hao-lianing is bad. Personally, i feel this society standard of being overly humble quite frustrating.

For example, recently I took my grade 5 clarinet exam. I would be hao-lianing to say that its damn easy. Most people will say i am hao-lianing. What makes you think you're that great? If you were, why not take a harder grade? Or get a perfect score of 150 (music grades are upon 150). Ok, from the majority point of view, i AM hao-lianing.

But from my own prospective, I am not hao-lianing, just being truthful. I just got my results 2 days back. I got a distinction(which you could also say i am hao-lianing by announcing my marks). So would most people still say i was hao-lianing when i said grade 5 was easy after knowing my results?

I find this a society problem, being overly humble that is. Look at the brazillian soccer players, they're all show-offs...especially on field. Yet, nobody says they are hao-lianning, cause they really are that good. And they aren't even close to humble, mocking their opposition without thought. It is because of this show-off attitude, the wanting to reach that standard that helps them move forward more. Of course, the hao-lian people usually are also snoobs.

My point? I think its ok to hao-lian, as long as you can support your hao-lian. If you claim to be something, you make sure you aren't just a preacher but something more.

Having said all this, i realise i am just a preacher most of the time. Murder me.

Ok! haha not bad right, NiCK can be serious! Bet most of you think i'm still that kid who doesn't use any brain. Well, you aren't wrong, but you aren't right either.

On the train that day, i saw some nutcase doing crossword puzzle. All people who do crossword puzzles are nuts. Its like they buy a book of mess, use their pencil to find the order in the chaos. I think in real-life, this are the people who like to clean up their room to make it neat.

So if you wanna find a good maid, find one who plays crossword puzzles, cause she will like to clean up your room. Then give her crossword puzzle books as christmas presents.

- "Oh Maria! Maria Maria Maria Mama-mi-ah, please clear my underwear! I can't find any new ones to wear! Maria Maria Maria!"

8:52 PM

3/22/2007

Tomorrow, we're gonna have a sale. You wanna buy air-con remotes, get it tomorrow at 2....twenty something teban garden drive/lane(can't remember lol!).

1 of my colleagues will be on a leaf at eastcoast. So that leaves 2 people to die. It takes the slow network and slow NiCK 10 mins to get 1 invoice,delivery order printed for the customer. Stupid system. Stupid NiCK

10:08 PM

3/20/2007

Working really makes me wish I were still that dumb ass walking around not giving a dumb shit what people think. The elders always say ignorance is a bliss. I get it now, the elders are envious of the dumb ass walking around. They want to be that dumb ass, not having to worry about office oppression.

Carrier has prospectively lengthened my week. Waking up at 11am was a blessing, eating lunch at 3 was a norm. Now, being in bed at 11 is a disaster, same as putting your head under your boss' car's wheel waiting for M-18 movie type of death. My lunches now are a blessing, its scheduled, proper....such a big change from eating left overs and biscuits. The companionship leaves little to ask for, the work is like a pit of vampires sucking each other.

My time in Khong Guan has allowed me to save money by occupying my entire Saturdays, and sapping energy from the rest of it.

Looking on the bright side, I am a little closer to my Lamborghini. Literally and financially. The Lamborghini show house is over the fence from carrier. And my first month earning 1k and above finally gives the accountant doing my CPF account to finally have some words to print.

I also have the ability to feed my computer repairman lunch. Sad part is i just bought a new graphic card for my computer recently.

10:16 PM

3/16/2007

First day of work at carrier was pretty good. I get to sit at a desk. I get to call the desk "mine", even though the true owner is the managing director. But at least, i have my own territory.

Everybody needs to call something their own property, be it a carpet or a car.

During my attachment, i thought i liked the company (the people & the corporate organization) But i was glad to leave after 5 months. Now that i have ended up in carrier, i realize why i never actually liked it. Everybody needs their territory, their comfort zone. Carrier even let me, an unskilled temporary staff, have a desktop.

For now, i am satisfied. But those leaving carrier all seem happy. I will probably reach that stage, but it will not be soon.

8:15 PM

3/15/2007

The problems of wanting something can be quite a headache.

Take for example you want to eat the apple. So u go earn some money. Then you collect your money. Then you go to the apple shop. Then you pay for an apple. And as you eat it, savoring the flavour slowly, the juice tickling your throat.

Then you say it was worth it.

The second day, you feel like eating apples again. So you do the same thing again, cause you don't have anymore money. Too bad for you, you slog thr work.

When you eat the second apple, do you still feel the satisfaction of the hard work? Only those that have gone through extensive parental propaganda would. Well, NiCK wouldn't feel satisfaction from eating the apple you worked so hard for. On the contrary, its cause i worked so hard that i don't want to eat the apple.

Tomorrow is the first day of my new job - a temp 2 month office slave.

3:11 PM

3/12/2007

I liked 300. And the actor's bodies were all damn fit looking, including the main actor whose probably like 9999999 years old.

If you don't know what 300 is, you're probably just completed the metamorphasizing stage in your mom's womb or your friend number count is less than 0.

(DAMN WINAMP OUT OF THE 3000 SONGS I HAVE, IT HAD TO PLAY THE SAME SONG ONCE AFTER THE OTHER DESPITE BEING ON SHUFFLE MODE)

Anyway, 300 contains some slow motion upper-body sex scenes and erotic dance. So kids should stay home and suck their thumb. After sucking your thumbs out, go take the spartan spear and toss it at the cinema guard. Maybe you'll get to watch the show after you come out of jail.

Peter told me it would be Violent and gory. I didn't really find it that gory, cause the blood spilling out was too little. Like if i take a pencil and poke your eye, then i withdraw the pencil i'll expect the eye to at least come out or drop on the floor or something..but no, no organs were flying around. WHICH IS WHY AFTER REMOVING THE NUDITY, THIS SHOW SHOULD BE CONSIDERED A FAMILY SHOW, NOT M18.

This guy is the elite of the Persian army and he's supposed to be the best of asia, called the immortals. Wth, not scary lor...i tink i am more scary than them. ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6:00 PM

3/05/2007

I shall inspire my juniors in band to come before i go off (ironic).

Anyways its time for me to go find work. Going with anle on wednesday to khong guan biscuit factory. Interestingly enough, in fairfield band, there were 2 kids who were rich. Their father was someone high up there in the khong guan management. I hope i don't meet them in the factory. its quite sad to work for your friend if you look at it as me being older than the kid.

5:27 PM

3/04/2007

I have sinned

10:51 PM

3/03/2007

Anle is a bastard tricked me into thinking he join Breakdancing at esplanade. That idiot!!!!!

Its almost the same as George Bush shaving his armpit hair on teevee.

7:55 PM

Finally, i've watched the entire FullMetal Alchemist. The ending was a little dumb but overall its nice. Time to move on to another anime. Any to recommend?

And my desktop just gave way in under 1 hour. And i am supposed to go for band at 130 and now its 12 and i feela litle lazy to move my ass.

This are my materialistic goals for now:
1. Buffet Festival(probably) or Tosca Clarinet ... 2nd hand is fine
2. Some nice metal Clarinet Ligature
3. Some nice Saxophone Mouthpiece
4. Vehicle License
5. New Computer (or graphic card plus ram)

11:41 AM